wasn't life so much nicer when i didn't had to go through things
things that made me think other ways
things that changed me
things that actually showed me who i really am
things that are hurtful
things that i wish i can ask for help and not sound needy at the same time

seriously, my life can't be more @#$%-ed up then right now..
first i fall in love with someone who @#$%-ed my whole semester..
@#$% cant believe i let it happen again... damn bitch!
now i have feeling for someone over the internet..
@#$% in all seriousness, i'm not only screwed mentally but psychologically :)

i guess it is all just me being so messed up for not prioritising my priorities properly..
sigh... i wish i could just turn everything around and start a fresh..
I actually can.. By telling myself tomorrow is a brand new day and i am blessed by His favor..
I will walk in His glory..


Dear Dad,
I wanna receive Your strength again. Fill me with Your Love and Grace. I want to feel that fire, that passion, that thing that i can feel that flows in me and through me :)
Amen =D