Breaking or Mending

It's been almost almost two years since I wrote something here. This blog has been with me since the first major downfall of my teenage life to my emotional stretching relationship with a girl 3 years older than me to another relationship. Being with my current girl, it questions my credibility of being a good boyfriend and its a long distance relationship. And yes, when we argue, its hell. I can't go to sleep feeling like an asshole.

Right now I should be study and finishing off my study not blogging. Somehow writing my moments down when I should be studying, brings back a nostalgic feeling where I used this writing to distress. it helps me to clear my thoughts, sort those rubbish thoughts out, then set my mood and mind clear. I feel better :) I remember starting this blog and realized it's my own personal diary. I can reread and learn something new about myself but also relive those dark moments where I wish someone helped me out; possibly cry a little then pat myself and said its over, you made it through.

Speaking of dark moments, I haven't really sat down and talk about my Da EE. So as my reward for studying hard for the next 2 two days. I will suck up all the tension, release it. After my exams, I will sit down and type it all out here; allow myself to be free then put it to rest. I realized I didn't have a proper output; my gf knew about it but it's new to her. I don't blame her for not being able to know because she hasnt experienced it.