Some time ago

I haven’t updated my blog for a very long time. I had exams last week so I decided to not come online much which includes updating my own blog. I will only tell you all the highlights of my two weeks.

Friday 19th of September and Saturday 20th Spetember
(Everyone who was there to set up, they are all my friends)

I hardly could get enough sleep the night before because I was so excited for my friend’s album launch. The band is called Approaching Aver and if you want to listen to some of their songs, go to www.myspace.com/approahingaver . They are pretty awesome and same goes to their song. I know all of the band members because they are form the church that I’m attending. One of them is my best friend from school. So, this is how I started my day. I woke up and did the usual thing then at 11 am, I cycled to uni to hand in my assignment then I was on my way back, a friend called said that he needed help so I decided to help him since I’m really nice *SMILE* I went back to uni and help him. Then, when I was about to come back, my friend, Jacob, called and who is a guitarist for Approaching Aver. He said that I can come and help the band to set up for tonight. So I rushed home, grab some clothes, an apple, and a big water bottle. I reach the place which is a community hall which is called Aitkenvale PCYC. I don’t know why they have weird names, so don’t ask me. I reached PCYC at 1pm, had some slices of pizza, and we are off to work. We set up the stage first then the speakers, then the microphone leads, then the music instrument leads, and then finally, setting up for the musical instrument. We had some problem during the setting up. The smoke machine let out a huge amount of smoke after it has warm up. Matt, my friend, who was doing the lighting system, he went to talk to the staff about separating the alarm system from the hall. After a few minutes, the smoke alarm went off and it was the most annoying sound I have ever heard in my life. So, the group wasted half hour to just wait for the fire-truck to turn the alarm off and to separate the alarm from the hall that the album launch is held.
When the concert was about to start, there were two guest bands playing and both of them sucked like mad. They did some bad things but not perverted just bad. When Approaching Aver came up, there more people standing than sitting. It was the best Approaching Aver gig I have ever been. I was wearing converse and it killed my ankle and leg. Note to self: If you want to do stage work or on your feet for most of the day, do not wear converse. It KILLS!
I had apple and pizza for the whole day. I reach there at 1pm and got home at 1am on bike. I spend 12 hours in there. I had my late dinner at 1.30am then went to sleep at 2.30am. I woke up on Saturday at 1pm, had my lunch, and went back to sleep at 3pm till 6pm. I know that I’m really lazy but I was really tired. When I woke up in the morning/afternoon, I realise something. I could not move properly then this means I had BODY-MAJOR-ACHING. It was so painful and I looked like a retarded person by the way I was walking.

How’s life?

Life is as usual. Parents are pain in the ass as usual.

I’m currently having a week worth of break but still, I have assignment and exam to study hence, same goes for the catching-up I have to do with my studies.
It has been 12 weeks and 2 days since she passed away or more exactly, it has been 3 months and 2 days. I still miss her which is no doubt because I do. Its funny how when someone dies, they are technically erased from the world and everything still goes on, it feels like that person never existed. When I sitting down and looking through all the pictures that I took when we were at school, those pictures are only frozen moments of what were happening that time. It just so heartbreaking that I could have done more but I did not and chose to be immature when I was around her.
I was not really angry at her, it was more like I was subconsciously hating myself for what I have ask her even when I knew the answer. Well, I could not change anything now. I only wish I had the guts to tell her how I felt myself instead of hearing from another party. At the same time, I’m content that she knew the real me from another person not the jerk that was around her. Tears are something that will happen but not so much makes life less dreadful. It was only a short one and a half year that I knew her but I had some funny memories with her. I was thinking how she sound and I forgotten but I did not break-down or anything. I just smiled.
One of the best times was when I got the chance to dance with her during our Yr 12 dance practise. I was so happy. I kept smiling the whole day. After the practise, she came up to me and said sorry. I was like what for and she replied because she kept stepping on my feet. I just smile and said it’s ok. I got her number that day too. So I was happier than any happiest day of my life. So that was one of them. When our formal finally came, she was dressed in pink which was her favourite colour. She was so magnificent and gorgeous. I was like if I got a chance to go out with her, I would be the luckiest guy on earth. I just kept looking at her the whole night because she was such in awe in her own beauty.

I don’t think that last sentence makes any sense.

She was hot on the outside and yet, beautiful on the inside. Just being close to her, I felt happy enough let alone having a conversation with her. I’m probably blabbering about her too much. Anyways, there nothing I do or say that will change or bring her back. As I was saying about her, I stopped and felt my cheeks. I was actually blushing and it was so warm. I smiled.
I will bring my latest entry to an end. If I continue, I would tell more than I intended. *SMIRK*
I would change my blog’s URL which I realised it is too long.
I would also put up a picture of her on my blog.
To me, it’s not emo and I do not really care what others may think.
The last thing that I regretted was that I did not cease the time when I had the chance to walk her home from the town’s library.