what you dont know is that everytime you leave me alone and not talk to me.

i die alittle more than you in know in my heart.

you are leaving me hanging wondering what the heck?!?!?!?!

my mind will wonder.. as time goes by, it gets worse and worst..

it will build up to the point where I wont want to talk to you because whatever that I am feeling will leak out through my words to you.

and it will lead to something bad.

and my heart towards you will turn into stone.

i know you better than anyone. you said you are busy. but wtf? you cant msg me when you are awake..

if you say you check your phone, then where the fuck is my msg?

is it so damn hard for you to care for my feelings

i know its my fault that I'm rude. you have th chance to stop me politely but you didnt..

and it turn into some stupid argument.

so what now? you are sad?

sometimes I wanna say fuck you and take care of yourself..

because somehow the residual effect of my part relationship keep coming back.

maybe i'm the one with pride issues.

this is why i dont tell you about my family life is because once I open all of myself to you,

i will take advantage of your kindness and I will destroy it.

"the part is what makes who you are today"

yeah I'm a mass of destruction of another person's life..

and I'm a mess. On the front seems happy and go-lucky but inside, is a boy who is chained by many things and is screaming with anguish, anger, pain, threat, and evil.