i am as fucked as some fellow who is drunk or high on drug..
what the fuck have I done? :(

i hope you dont think of me less when I tell you what I'm about to tell you in a few days time..

i hope you wont look at me differently because what I did to her..
i can only guess that you know alittle bit about her..
i hope you wont see me differently.. less of a man..

i hope i dont break apart from telling her the truth..
i hope i can forgive her..

i guess thats what my friend meant by keeping a gap between me and her..
so if anything doesnt work out, at least we can be friends..

i'm seriously a cold asshole..
because I dont feel anything right at these moment..