my insecurities

the more i see your picture

the more i miss you

the more i fall in love

i just wish distance isnt an issue

because right now i would give up anything to be with you right now.

everyone have their own insecurities even guys or me.

i'm just scared that this relationship will stop.

i'm afraid that when you really need me, i cant be there physically.

my worst fear is that i can't be with you after all that we have to go through

or

that one of us burns-out while trying to keep this relationship. :'(

i know i want to create the greatest love story with you.

you are probably my first ever normal relationship >_<

no rebound, no been taken advantage of

no being used as a punching bag.. just a simple/normal yet amazing relationship.

right now, all we have is just yahoo messenger, skype, and fb message to keep in contact.

whenever i talk to you, i feel happy inside. maybe i'm just over-thinking things..

i want to continue to love you and fall in love again.

time will only tell how things will end up with both of us.

i realised that both of us throw lovey-dovey words too much.

Not that it is anything wrong but i dont want it to loss the meaning.

next year is going to be a big year, where i really live my only 21 year old life.

1.i will attend my first wedding (my best friend's wedding)

2.i want to go to sydney

3.i want to travel to see you (stay 2 weeks i guess)

so many things i wanna do and i have to keep my insecurities in check.

i realised that i have the tendency to burn myself out.

i have the tendency to give everything i have got on the first run and then i have nothing to show later on.

but right now, i know or i'm alil sure that i have some control over it. because i wanna be able to show alil surprise to you and i know you will do the same. as both of us are getting to know each other, i also trying to understand you and opening up my heart.

for me right now, all care is that i wanna love you and take care of you. i wanna be able to call you mine and i can be called yours. <3

at the end of the day, i'm just afraid to lose the girl that i love. :)

~i see a future in those beautiful smile~