hmmm... =')

He: What's 3 words you will use to describe me?

She: hmmmm *thinking*

He:?????

She: please wait patiently.. hehehe

He: ......

She: you are my almost ideal boy.. you are worthy.. and you are a blessing..

He: O__Oaskjdajdkajdajk why am I all those?

She: you are my almost ideal boy.. but i have to see you face to face first :P
You are a blessing because God has send you.. You are worthy because the love i gave didn't go to wast

He: anldkajsdnbad =') <3



right after that, she asked me whatis the worst thing i would od to hurt her..
I told her that cheating would be worst but i got two.. the other one is to tell her that everything i did was just for show.. no real feelings.. which is not true and neiher isthe cheating part.. sigh
told her to me cheating is the worst part :'|

sometimes over-thinking stuff kills the atmosphere.. the longer you have it, the worst it gets.. and the next thing you know it doesn't only kill the atmosphere but the relationship.. sigh

i became alil emo when she post a pic on tumblr saying "some people are meant to fall in love but never meant to be together"
i sincerely wished this relationship doesn't turn out to the like my previous one.. >_<
i'm just scared that it will..

i tried to look at the bright side.. that maybe she meant that we are meant to be with each other while all the previous ones were just a stepping stone.. I hope it is lke that..

then again i need to sleep already in 3hours time i need to et up and work..sigh
i'm just scared that i will burnout.. because the last relationship really took a big toll out of me.. I was on the verge of contemplating suicide because i can't take being treated like trash.. not only from my ex but also from my parents even when i know that they meant for the best for me..

i guess in every relationship.. there will always be some fears that something will happen..
the worst part is when it happens.. you cant help but be helpless but to just let go of it even though you know it is the source of your pain.. because you know deep down, it will kill you and drag you to hell with it..

i sincerely , genuienely, whole-heartedly hope that the risk that i'm taking with you is worth it..
i dont want to be a screwed-up again -____-

hehehe then again, she said whatever she may say or do, in the end she loves me..
i guess i can trust her on that <3 hehe..