O.o you tell me

Well today is something I think it was significant..
Hahahaha... anyways, I'm just happy I guess..
I also don't know.. kekeke

But seriously, I'm glad I took the risk..
Cause I never knew or felt something I haven't felt for so long
I dont think I was looking for being loved but more of who I can give love..
I guess it felt like being loved was something I never had also..
Or vice versa <3
Like I know what it is like to feel loved from friends and families esp parents..
But there is also a different kind of love...
A love that is between two people that kind..

I always liked that kind but never seem to get it
Up until summer.. Until I met her, my lil angel..
I know she's older than me.. But deep down, I seriously cheerish her..
For now I guess we are just best friends... =)
But I'm also happy cause I still get to spend time with her..

I'm a pretty simple yet complicated guy at times..
I can get pretty content with the simplest stuff eg just seeing her smile again.. lol
Because for my life, I've been through enough hell to know to not take people's feeling for granted.. I know my heart is worse than a graveyard.. I know how some people are being treated and I don't want anyone esp her to feel like what I have felt..

I told her once if you knew the real me, I would the ugliest lil boy that you'll ever known..
In life, you have a choice and the power to decide that is what makes us different from animals.. I know it has already passed the 18th becoz its like 1.14am now.. But yeah I'm happy..

I sometimes wished that I could have this or that. But life is not about regrets.
Its about the thing that matters the most. For me now is my studies and her also.
I know she'll lecture me on that. But she is important to me. I promises her to study hard and I intend to keep that promise. I want her to be proud of me. Simple as that. So I have to juggle carefully. Like I still wanna spend some time with her and stuff =)

Its a bit hard to believe that I've only knew her for 2 months because when I'm with her, it felt longer. Maybe because we both can't shut up but just keep on talking.. lol
I remember my 1st lil outing with her. It feel weird but good at the same time..
its funny how until today, she's still not happy about something.. hahaha
its a secret that both us know only.. I still shake my head when she remind me about it..
HAHAHAHA!!! I think you know what it is angel =)

Imagine this, most of the people I trained are older than me.. How can the supervisor be younger than the juniors.. hahaha btw, I'm not supervisor.. I'm don't enough quality of being one.. I'm just saying because I was part of the 1st batch to work at my workplace..

Also imagine this, me *senior staff/supervisor* falls for her *junior staff*.. so classic right!!! lol


I'm glad I knew you for this long.. I know there is many more to come..
But things wont be easy from here on out right?

u a^o7