Long time

Date: Thursday, 15^th of Jan 2009

Time: 12.08am

There’s a saying goes that when New Year come, people plan their New Year resolution for that New Year. I always thought New Year’s resolution is some sort of guideline if you accidentally turn the wrong way. To me, these resolutions are nothing more than goals we try achieve but there is still some importance to it.

The story so far... I have decided to move to Melbourne with my parents. I’m still unsure what uni I’m going to be accepted in and to be blunt itself, I don’t really care. To be even blunt, I don’t even know who I am anymore. I know that everyone will say that it’s something I go through.

For this year’s resolution is only to survive it all and not go crazy during it. I promise myself that I have to embrace what is good and be patient with what is bad, at the same time, work out a way to overcome it before I get fired by my parents. Getting through this year seems kinda slim and maybe get on my nerves most of the time.

As I look back or reflect on last year, it was a really bad year for me. Sometimes I wonder how I even get through certain events with killing myself in the process. Maybe because most of the time I have commitments to work on like playing for the youth band.

I guess part of living life to fullness means never regret the things that you didn’t get to do.

Don’t we all wish sometimes that our parents try to understand us or try to be in our shoes once in a while and not always how we should understand them?

You know what is the best? To just drop everything and walk away from everyone and everything. Not give a care and live the life we all want.

I always wanted to do that just to see the face of my parents who undermine me all the time. Then it won’t be a good example to my little brother.

Anyways, enough of with these silly talks and questions.

I started checking out a girl working in coles. HAHAHAHAHA!!!! I feel so lame and so desperate. HAHAHA!!! But she is cute though. :P I was just checking out k? Nothing more than that. From what I observed, she is probably in high school maybe around 15 or 16. Maybe I’m wrong. I’m not even sure myself. I also like her name too because she had a name tag on. It was quite a relieve that when I was checking her out, she didn’t look back or else. I male kau kau! HAHAHA!!! But yeah she is cute. I wanted to go talk to her but mum was there. So not nice lor. HAHAHA! Damn!!! I’m a real sucker for cute faces. Hehehe!!! Well, not really or maybe is it.

Anyways, I have somebody on my mind already for quite a long time and not telling *BLEAK*

She’s really awesome. I was about to say special but that word has already been reserved to someone else. Wonderful would probably be a little bitty winny too much. I think maybe she has someone else on her mind too but who knows. Well, certainly not me :p

I have nothing much to say but that I miss playing drum. The weather in Melbourne is really dry and hot because of summer. Melbourne is a bit like M’sia only a bit. I haven’t gotten the chance to check out the city yet but will soon.

I did a lot of thinking when my family and I drove down from Townsville to Melbourne. I spend my Christmas travelling and same goes to New Year. We reached Melbourne on New Years Eve. I spend it by watching tv and talking to my cousin.

That’s pretty much it. I probably blog about the journey from Townsville to Melbourne on my next entry.

Bye for now not forever *SMILE*

“Sometimes I wonder, whether I should continue be myself or become a new person.”