My little sister is bugging me for not posting stuff on for so long...
Well, I’m in the midst of exam... So that’s why and I don’t have anything to blog at the moment.. *YOU WAIT UNTIL I COME BACK SIS!!! YOU’LL FEEL MY FART!!! Ooopsy!!! Wrong word more like wrath*
So I decided to post one in the midst of exam and stoping “We need more post.. We feed on your blog!” messages that clot up my c-box.. *Bless you people* Hehehe.. You thought I was gonna curse you guys... But no I didn’t because I’m really nice.. Ask my friends!!! Hope they do say that.. I think except for my youngest sister because I always make fun of her.. Hahaha... Technically, I make fun of everyone but I don’t make fun of them and make them cry because that is just WRONG!!! On top of that, most of my friends are girls.. So if I make one cry, few of them could come and smack me upside down.. Anyways, I have always tried my best not to make any girls cry but sadlyness, I have made one cry and I’m not proud and neither am I going to do it again... *MOURN IN SADNESS* Is the past and we are cool now!! Hehehehe!!!! I better stop at that point before I blabber any further about my mistakes in life..
My post is about the music that I hear.. As most of you know, I’m officially Epic Band’s drummer... Epic band is Epic Generation’s youth band.. Epic Generation is my youth that I go to every Friday from 5.30 till 11 pm.. and Yes, I spend alot of time in church.. Because that’s where I feel most alive and it is where I love to do what I do best.. Youthing!!! Hahaha.. I made that up.. Youthing means helping out in the youth in any manner e.g. packing up, drumming, make fun of the youth pastor, and making new friends., So that’s my definition of youthing on a Friday night...
I keep sidetracking.. Back to my point, I was browsing through my songs in my awesome Toshiba laptop which is full of songs.. Both secular and Christian songs.. As I needed to delete some of the songs which I think has no meaning to me.. So I was listening to each one of them.. And I came across Nickelback-Far Away.. I know you guys are like yeah!!! I remember that song.. Well, that songs used to be my all time favourite love song beside yellowcard-only one.. It’s a really nice song.. And I bet everyone would have surely heard of it because this song was played in M’sia radios. Then I paused and think for the reason why have I stopped hearing this song.. I sort of recall the feeling of always avoiding the song.. Well, something bad happen that cause me to stop listening to the song.. It’s my old relationship thingy.. I also remembered what every words represent and reminded me of.. It sort of became a scar that I didn’t want to look again and look back.. Well, it same goes to the girl from my high school and the song that reminds me of her was diary of jane by breaking benjamin. I’ve tried 2 years to find my place in her diary/heart.. But I didn’t found space and partly was because she didn’t provide a space..
ANYWAYS!! I’m side tracking again... If I go on, then it will be a really EMO blog!!!The songs also brought some really sweet memories with my friends.. I’m feeling abit sad.. Because I miss my friends.. Sometimes it’s so painful just thinking of them as in friend wise.. I sometimes imagine how cool would it be if they could live here.. I know it’s a small town.. But then there so many things to do like walking on the beach or just having fun.. So like what if M’sia was a better and more peaceful countries instead of corruption and evil floating in the very air that my friends breath in.. Seriously, just thinking about it for a second, Western people say that M’sia is always a good country to live in and that people are all live harmoniously.. The first time I heard it, I was “Are you dead serious?” I have lived in M’sia for more than 10 years.. And I know some of my friends had stayed longer and they probably see a bigger picture than me.. But the problem is Western people only see what is on the surface.. From the bottom of my heart, I serious love M’sia and I love being a Chinese Malaysian.. We have the awesomest food and are quite up to date technology.. But the only thing to make all these to crumble down is corruption from the government.. Malaysian making a fool out of each other.. If only the government would turn from corruption, maybe things would slowly take a good turn.. And if only, companies in Malaysia practise some good work ethic, the education system taken to another level, I think Malaysia can be as good as Singapore or better..
If you want to know, I’m always worried for my friends’ safety and their families.. I try my best to read the Star online whenever I have the chance but every time I read it almost half of the page is bad news... It is either got killed, raped, or some bad happen.. But then, I pray nothing is going to happen to my friends... *SIGH* Sorry for the emo blog again.. But yeah...
Bottom line, I really miss my friends.. I remembered on the last day.. I almost wanted to burst in tears when they left but we were in pyramid and esther was beside me, so I have swallow down my tears.. Well, since you all know that I was going to cry so why not know a little more.. I tried to be the usual silly-self on the last day.. Well, it lasted until we finished watching Alvin and The Chipmunk.. That’s when the thought of “It’s time to go back and never to see them again for another year or 2 or who knows” kept on hitting hard in my heart and mind.. So yeah... Now you all know how much I actually treasure you guys and miss you guys.. If one of them actually drop a tears on that day, I would have continued and not stop.. Hahahaha... Sorry it’s just a “me” thing you know.. Well, what the heck do you expect me not to cry after not seeing my friends for 2 year and on top of that I didn’t really had the time to say a proper goodbye to them and from them.. I just had to leave... I just rock up in school on last day and just say my goodbye and that’s all.. Owh!!! FYI, this doesn’t include friends from SOR, it also include friends from GRYP...
Ok!!! I have to confess my spend most of my time with a girl.. I’m sorry and yes, I know!!! I’m stupid.. At that time, 2 major things happen which I’m not gonna say.. Well, that 2 event really shook me off-guard that I neglect my friends and I brought this on myself.. So, hehehe... Technically, it has always been my fault.. So yeah..
If you wonder how am I doing now and what has been happening with my friends from school and youth, friends from youth I have gotten closer while my friends from school seems to be drifting apart and away and further and further away... I try to organise things e.g. gathering.. But it seems whenever I want do it, I always have things to do and none of my friends seem to organise something.. Well, gather was usually organise my 2 of my friends but one is on a an exchange program and she’s in Switzerland and my the other friend, he’s kinda busy with his band because the band is playing at heaps of places and their album released is just round the corner.. And I can feel that he’s kinda sick and tired of being the only one organising something.. So yeah.. I still treat them as my friends.. And now in the midst of exam, I cant really arrange any gathering.. Plus, I’m really scared that I could fail one of my subject or two because of my taking-uni life easy attitude.. My 1st exam was on Sat.. I was shivering not because it’s cold on winter but the thought of my parents wasting a thousand dollars or two.. It’s alot for my education and the least I could do is pass or and the best I could do is get a distinction.. To show them that I didn’t waste their money for nothing.. To show how desperate I was and btw, this is my 1st semester of uni, I kneeled down and literally begged God to help.. I was literally that scared that I will fail..
I know it’s crazy to some of you but this is how a prayer should be.. Desperate for a revival or something.. You have to beg God.. The Bible said “Seek and you will find.” I know heaps of people know this verse.. But how desperate are you to seek God’s help or that something but on top of that all God request from us, His Children, was that seek His kingdom first and all His Righteousness be put unto you.. Correct my if I’m wrong.. So yeah, if you seek God first, He will bless you.. This also brings me to another point, I remember from my Ex-youth pastor, PN. He’s such an awesome youth pastor and I would say he has influence me in so many ways.. Seriously, he’s one of those pastor or matured Christian that I really look up to.. As I was saying, I remembered he said this “A musician doesn’t need their instrument to praise God, he/she needs their heart 2 do it.”
Anyways, do you believe that I have typed almost 1700 words.. This is so unbelievable.. Because I have problem doing this with some of my assignments in high school for English.. Hehe.. Well, if you cut all those *hehes and hahas* and maybe those *so yeahs* then it would most probably be at least 1000 words or least or it could be more.. I need to sleep already and need to wake up early because I have to cook for lunch for mum and bro.. And yes!! I’m a guy and I cook, bake, and do dirty work in the house.. And I enjoy it!! Call me weird if you want!!! Because I don’t care... I’m cooking pasta for lunch.. So I gotta snoozy boozy...
This has been the most random blog.. Sorry if you got lost and didn’t get anything from.. Good if you understand... and I miss you friends and you know who you are!!! *SMILES*
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